I'm still searching for a new job when I can. I can't stand being this way.

 I just want to sleep.

I dream of a clean healthy me.  Rich with a closet full of nice suits.

 It's been a while since I last wrote. People just make me feel like crap. It makes me feel lost, so lost in this world. I've never felt like I belong to this planet, like a outcast among thieves. I spend my days thinking where I messed up and how I got this far off track yet I keep trying to swim but I am wearing heavy weights around my boots, my boots ? I hate my boots I hate being dirty.

Maybe it's time for a hair cut and a shave now.

years later

I 'm still pretty depressed and lately I've been having the worst time ever. I decided to do what any young male would do, I'm going to advertise my recovery from this shitty existence on the enter webies.